Am I going crazy?

There is an idea of abigbrightshiningstar; some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there. I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. I feel on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.

Am I going crazy?

As long as you realize your feelings seem crazy, you can get help. Either stop taking drugs or go see someone soon

Am I going crazy?

huuh ?

Am I going crazy?

A little bit pretentious perhaps! I'm guessing you're about 17 right? But no, you're not going crazy. You seem to have reasonable - if questionable - levels of self awareness and self efficacy, but there's no delusional or psychotic ideation in there. I think you just need to grow up a bit and you'll be fine

Am I going crazy?

I've been there many times, and therapy and meds help but it all really boils down to just not taking life so seriously. it's also not all about you. if you focus on yourself too much, of course you're going to find things you can't stand. get out and get into some things to take your mind off of being empty, even though you probably dont even want to get out of bed. it's the only thing. this too shall pass.

i'm peggy, i'm nineteen.

myspace.com/this_beautiful_forgery if you ever need to talk.

peace.

Am I going crazy?

hey i like that song!

Am I going crazy?

Humans are merely vessels for spirit ... don't let yours get the better of you. Go to the woods, the trees will rebalance the scales and put that bigbrightshiningstar back in the heavens where it belongs. Even if they have no leafs at this time of year ...

Avoid the night ... for the otherbrightshiningstars will want their bit of you all for themselves too. Hold on to that mask and sleep the darkness away. But not during the day ...

Acupuncture or shiatsu can be useful too you know ;-)

Am I going crazy?

Well said.